Here are some nice updates.
I finished typing up the plot/dialogue/whatever to the prelude for Kuwabara Kuwabara.
It's three parts and pretty brief. I doubt you'd want to read it, but let me know if you actually have the compulsion. It's ridiculous, trippy, and eerie and it's not supposed to make any sense until you progress further in, so don't expect anything good.

I've been spending most of my lunches/cafeteria study halls in the art room working on fucked up paintings, or at a table with some people while mulling over KK. I've been productive, but only in the things that don't remotely matter to anyone else. I started some concept art pages for the prelude (A Dead Angel's Overture) and I have exactly what I need to do for the real pages all set. Hopefully I can advance on that this week; my mood has certainly been in the right place.

My fear has been eating me alive lately. I see him everywhere; he knows this, and all I can do is run and hide and pretend I am no longer myself. It hasn't been working as well as I'd hoped.

I don't know what to do with myself now, and my despondency keeps getting reinstated by all of the events around me.

Is anything bothering you?
Don't worry about it.

Is there anyone else in the room with you?
No.

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
My mom.

How are you feeling?
Like I want to invalidate every single feeling.

What are you doing?
I'm distracting myself with "Do you believe Jesus Christ is the Lord and Saviour of this world?" lurking and indiefucks reading.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
YES.

What is your favorite drink?
Tea.

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
UGH I hope those people fixed the car so we don't have to stay stranded.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Not yet.

What were you doing at 8:00AM?
Reading.

What's something you do when you're mad?
Bite my lip until I taste blood, and distract myself.

Have you done something bad today?
No.

Do you have any siblings?
Yes.

Who is the last boy you hugged?
My little brother.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
No.

Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?
No.

What are you listening to?
Deftones.

What are you wearing right now?
Black wifebeater and boxer-briefs.

Baseball or football?
Gross.

Okay baseball guys or football guys?
Fuck me gently with a chainsaw.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes.

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
My mom and brother.

Is there a lot of stress in your life?
Alskdfj.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Yes.

Has anyone called you babe today?
That doesn't happen.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
I highly doubt it.

Do you have a younger brother?
Yes.

Do you get drunk every weekend?
I don't do that ever.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Andrea.

Do you miss someone today?
Yes.

Do you get mad easily?
Yeah, but I don't need to show it.

Have you argued with anyone today?
Yeah.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I hope so.

Have you ever skinny dipped in a pool?
Uhh in a creek.

Have you gone to school in California?
No.

What was the last dream you had?
That would be way too awkward to write here.

Explain your relationship status:
I'm single. It's pretty obvious why.

Are you a cuddler?
YES.

What kind of drunk are you (slutty, crazy, bitchy)?
Fuck you.

What did you do last night?
I got sick, then the car broke down on our way back to new york, then we were stranded, then the tow truck took it, then we walked to a hotel in a sketchy part of new jersey, then we went into the room, then I got on the pull out couch, then I read, then I drew, then I read some more.

Did you eat cereal today?
No.

What person of the opposite sex do you know cares about you?
You tell me.

Is there a food in particular you've been craving lately?
I don't know. I need to do some baking.

Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren't dating?
Yeah.

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
No.

What do you drink a lot of?
Tea.

Have you ever had a panic attack?
Story of my life.

Are you wasting time on the person you like?
Most likely.

Is there anywhere else you would rather be?
Yes, but I am so cozy right now that it doesn't really matter.

How fast does your mood change?
It depends on what is happening.

Where is your biological father right now?
Outside doing drunk things with his friends.

Have you ever been called a tease?
No.

Have you ever felt you weren't good enough?
I know I'm not.

Who do you hate?
One person.

Have you ever sworn you'd never be friends with someone again and then were?
Yes. From middle school to ninth grade that was every day for me.

What do you want in a significant other?
To feel safe.

Has your heart been broken?
Yes.

Do you want someone you shouldn't?
It's most likely really dumb of me, but it's not as if I shouldn't.

Has someone hurt you that you thought wouldn't?
Yes.

Do you have a credit card?
No.

tag: if they feel like it.

Do anything special last night?
No, unless a pastel drawing of Vicious is special.

It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
I don't know.

Are you waiting for something?
Yes.

Looking back, did you ever think you'd be where you're at in life now?
No.

Are you in a good mood?
No.

Anything you're giving up on?
Yes.

Where were you at 12:00am this morning?
My room.

Without naming names, say two things to two people.
1. Thank you.
2. You haven't won yet.

What song did you listen to last?
from fear through the eyes of madness

Who was the last person you texted & what did you talk about?
Abi, about hanging out tomorrow night.

What woke you up this morning?
Weird dream fragments.

Have you ever thought about killing someone in detail?
Yes.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J, A, M, R or P?
Yes.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Me.

If you had to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Blood red, like usual.

If you had to get another piercing (not ears) what would you get?
Anti-eyebrow or hipbones. Except I need to lose more weight before I get my hipbones.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
That's a dumb question.

How late did you stay up last night?
Seven, am.

Who did you last sleep next to?
Andy.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I can be excellent.

Do you try hard in school?
In art.

What's bothering you?
Too much to write here.

Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
Walking, yeah.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Hanging out with Abi, later.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yes.

What are your plans for the weekend?
Rachel's graduation party at my house.

Are you married? Do you want to be eventually?
No. Yes.

When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Too long ago. Hugs, please.

Can you go a day without music?
I'd rather not.

Are you counting down for anything?
I'm avoiding that.

What are you listening to?
The song mentioned above.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
I don't plan on sleeping.

Do you look decent when you wake up?
I never look decent.

Have you ever felt completely broken?
Yes.

Do you like meeting new people?
It depends. It can be scary.

Have you lost weight recently?
Over ten pounds since april. Fuck yeah.

Do you sleep with a fan on?
It's too hot not to.

Do you mind being cold?
Not at all; that generally means more snuggling.

If you could go back 8 months and change something would you?
I wouldn't have fucked everything up.

Who made your day today?
Nobody.

Did you tell anyone you loved them today?
My mom.

Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Ugh, I don't know.

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Start this off with, what does your last text message read?
Sure

And your name is?
Maryssa.

Everybody has a best friend, who's yours?
I don't know if I have one.

What are you listening to right now?
"eating the porridge and killing the bears" -heavyheavylowlow

What are your plans for tomorrow?
I want to see abi, but I'm not sure if I'll still be feeling like a zombie.

In the past week, have you lost a friend?
Not in the past week.

Yelled at someone?
Yeah.

Had fun?
Yes.

What did you do today?
Zombied around.

Did you enjoy your day yesterday?
Yesterday was really nice.

Hate is a strong word, who do you hate?
Vicious.

Do you drink a lot of water?
Eh, yeah.

Who did you last lay in a bed with?
Aaron while watching Watchmen.

Where did you get your last bruise/scratch from?
I don't know. I injure easily.

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
Yes.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
No.

Do you keep a planner?
No.

What kind of mood are you in today?
I'm kind of out of it. I want all these answers but I don't want to ask the questions.

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Stumbled downstairs.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
Six or seven, AM.

Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

Tell me about the top you're wearing?
It's a huge Nirvana shirt from my little brother.

Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
Yes.

What are you craving right now?
Answers. Snuggling.

Do you want kids anytime soon?
No.

Are you hiding something from someone close to you?
Yes.

Is there something you want to tell someone but can't?
Yes.

Will you sleep alone tonight?
Yes.

Any plans for next weekend?
That's too far ahead.

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
Yes. But I'd lose the fight in a landslide.
...I wouldn't mind.

What woke you up today?
I had a really bad dream.

Anything good happening tomorrow?
I don't know.

Has anyone who were drunk called/texted you?
Yeah.

Would you buy $1000 shoes if they were the "perfect" pair for you?
No.

Is your mouse the same colour as your computer/​laptop?​
Uhh there isn't a mouse. It's a laptop.

Last time you saw snow?
Winter.

What will you be doing in the next 2 hours?
Probably working on the graphic novel or something.

Are you excited for next year?
I'm really scared.

What is worse, physical or emotional pain?
Emotional, by far.

Who sat in front of you in your fourth period class?
Uhh painting... Aaron and Jess, I think. And in APUSH, uhh, Shannon.


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Survey, I'll probably delete it later.


Let's start it off with, why are you single?
I don't want to talk about it.

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
Yyyeah.

What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
Getting to sleep.

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
Yeah.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
I'm happy sometimes.

Are you a jealous person?
No.

Have you ever been told that you were going to hell?
"well my darlin', that's cuz you're the devil's people"
Country Cody, we love you.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
I look like a zombie.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
I lasted in one for two years, four months, and three days.
Yes.

Do you think two people can last forever?
I thought so.

Would you like to put last night on repeat, and live it forever?
No.

What was the most memorable thing that happened last summer?
Almost drowning in New Jersey? That's fun to talk about.

Do you think that you will be married within ten years?
I don't know.

Have you ever gone out of your way to do something meaningful for someone?
Yes.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I doubt it.

Were you mad about the way you woke up this morning?
No.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Woo!

Has anybody ever told you they wanted to spend the rest of their life with you?
In different words.

Last person you slept with, non sexually?
Andy.

Have you cried this week at all?
I haven't let myself cry since April.

Where were you at 8:00 this morning?
Tossin' and turnin'.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
No.

Are you drunk?
No.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Ahhh Rachel?

Do you prefer a shower or bath?
Baths are fun. So are showers.

What would you do with a $10 bill you found on the ground?
Pick it up and do some running and heel-clicking.

Have you said "I love you" today?
To my mama.

What's one thing you actually remember about kindergarten?
Eddy Barringer telling me he had a gun in his locker. Hahaha.

Are you closer with your mom or dad?
Mama.

Do you prefer the tanning bed or the sun?
Have you seen how white I am?

What's the last thing you think about before going to sleep at night?
Haha.

How many rumors have you heard about yourself?
Ohhh boy.

What's a nickname you go by?
Ryss.

How do you calm down when your extremely angry?
Ehh bite my lip and stare at nothing.

A movie or a long walk in the park on the first date?
I'm game for anything.

Do long distance relationships actually work out?
I wouldn't know.

Do you currently have a job?
Yup.

Which would you prefer, be rich and miserable, or poor and extremely happy?
Poor and haaappy.

Do you believe the first kiss tells you everything you need to know about the relationship?
Huh. That would be crazy.

Would you want a house at the beach or in the mountains?
A rocky rainy cliff beach.

Which would you rather have, a huge walk in shower or a jacuzzi bath tub big enough for 2?
Oh lord both.

Who do you prefer.​​​​.​​​​.​​​​Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Angelina Jolie.

Do you like Starbucks...or are they just overpriced?
I've only been there once.

What color are your eyes?
Willow green.

Do you have glasses or contacts?
I have glasses, I just don't wear them much.

What's the most you've ever spent on a pair of jeans?
I don't know. I don't buy stuff anymore.

Do you ever actually make your bed?
When people are coming over I do sometimes.

How many pillows do you have to sleep with?
One, but lotsa stuffed animals.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
I've kissed someone while wearing my lip ring, if that works.

Who was the last person's voice you heard?
My brother's.

Who was the last person you sat on the couch with?
Uhh my brother, now.

Do you want to fix things with anybody?
Yeah, but that's also scary to do.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Watching Watchmen at my house with Aaron!

What are you doing today?
Nothing too wonderful.

Last movie you watched?
Transformers. GIVE ME YOUR FACE.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Watching Metalocalypse.

When was the last time you went swimming in a pool?
Like two years ago. I don't like to wear bathing suits in front of people.
The ocean, on the other hand...

Do you like to sing at all?
I sing all the time when people aren't here.

Did you take a nap today?
Nope.

Do you want to be famous one day?
No, I just want to make tattoos, baked yummy things, and art.

Have you ever been gambling?
Nooo.

If you could move, would you?
Yes.

When is the next time you’ll kiss someone?
I really don't know.

What is the reason behind your Myspace song?
Uhh the Mars Volta is really nice and the song has set a mood I've been feeling for a while.

Do you believe in love?
Yeah.

Who did you last tell a secret to?
Uhh.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Yes.




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